Yesterday I accomplished some things. Made up a notebook to list personal and financial goals and included a monthy/daily entry list of "Things to Do". I turned off the TV and put on some music and concentrated on these things. I also found my workbook on household budgeting from a class I took back in 1998. This will be a big help. When it got too overwhelming to think about, I took a nap.....

I was able to figure out how to get to the hot water heater and turn down the thermostat. Waiting for dh to take a shower today and see if he complains. If he doesn't, I will turn it down some more. I have a $300.00 electric bill for last month and yes, it's normal and I've had the electric company here and they say everything is fine. Only thing else they suggested was hiring an electrician to come out and check everything. I have a newer heat-pump AC/Heating unit and I've had my home weatherized and have those expensive sunscreens on all of my windows. I change the filters frequently. I keep the AC on about 78 during the day and dh turns it down to 74 at night. I do have an older freezer which is probably costing me about $20.00 a month to run but can't replace it right now and I really need it as I have a side-by-side fridge which has little freezer space. During the months when I'm not using AC or Heat my bill is about $165.00.

Called my Mom yesterday. She lives in a different part of the US and says life is pretty much the same there for them. Little Sis and Little Bro are living with them along with a nephew. House is crowded and Little Sis has major mental and physical problems and I heard her being verbally abusive to Mom. She won't kick them out and so is left to deal with it. Little Bro is working but is selfish with his money. Just too depressing to think about. Big sigh.

Almost 8:00 am here and I've already read my bible and made coffee, checked all my email accounts and now I'm here. I've also made a huge decision on my part to stay off the computer more. For a while, this will be the only Website I will come to. My reasoning is, if I continue to frequent my usual message boards then I'm still hiding my head in the sand and am not concentrating on fixing my problems.

I made $13.00 on ebay today. I already owe them over $80 for fees for last month and now $140.00 for this months invoice. Last months payment bounced from my bank account so I assume they will lock my account untill I pay them. Afraid to list any more stuff to sell till I find out incase they won't let me sell and check my account. Don't know how this works.

Progress on the yardsale was at a standstill yesterday. Can't really have a complete outside yardsale due to winds blowing everything into my neighbors yards so I will "gut" the garage and set up tables in there. The big door won't open cause it's broken but I can use the side door. Think that will work better. It was frustrating to figure out what I could do but now that I've figured it out, I feel better. Now to pull everything out of there that has been stored for several years. I am assuming this will take me longer to do than to just pull stuff out and set up like most people would do so it may set me back another week on opening the sale. I've only got 6 days to do it and place the add in the paper and I'm not sure if my body will hold up to that much work. I will try and meet the challenge.

Off to straighten up the house to get dressed for my day. I find we both feel better when the house is clean. Dirty houses are depressing.

4:00pm Update
1st Grrrr... Just one grrr after another today. I worked about 3 hours pulling stuff out of the garage and then got tired so needed a nap to refresh myself. Dh said he didn't want me out in the garage today anyway. When I asked why? He said "because, I'm not doing anything today and when you're working, you make me look lazy"!

2nd grrr. Dh just left to go get ribs to make for dinner. At first he wouldn't tell me where he was going. Reason being, we had a discussion on Friday night about how expensive ribs were even on sale as they are so wasteful. I said we didn't need them! So now he not only left to go get ribs but also took my car which has less than 1/2 tank gas when he could have taken his truck which the company buys gas for weekly. Also, dh has $100 and I only have $5.00. When I suggested I might need some on Wednesday, he said no because he already gave me almost his whole check. I told you, he has no clue!

I'm so angry but can't show it so will put my energy into working around the house for the rest of the evening and I guess, cooking ribs.